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Yearning for God.

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The 20 word in my Lent lexicon is:

YEARNING.

It’s inspired by psalm 41, today’s responsorial psalm. Generally, I tend to overlook the responsorial psalm, looking first for insights in the other scripture readings. I often miss out on real wisdom and insight by doing that. So today I’m reflecting on these words:

“Like the deer that yearns for running streams, so my soul is yearning for you, my God.”

It speaks to that longing that we all feel deep within us most of the time. Sometimes it feels like we’re always looking for something that we never quite find or that we’re always slightly dissatisfied with what we have. It can be unsettling and frustrating at best.

We can try to fill that gap with money, possessions, career or success. In my experience that works to some extent. For a while we can feel fulfilled and satisfied by those things, but after a while we begin to realise that those are not enough. Underneath the apparent satisfaction we become aware of a niggling feeling we want something more regardless of how well we are meeting the goals we set for ourselves.

That underlying discontent can be uncomfortable. We can be tempted to push it aside, trying to fill the gap with more of the same, but that doesn’t often work. Instead we can sit with the discontent & discover its true source is our desire for God. Once we can acknowledge that it can lead us to seek God’s presence in our lives in new & enriching ways.

Where is your yearning for God leading you this Lent?

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Second chances.

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The 19 word in my Lent lexicon is:

SECOND CHANCE.

We live in a world that is quick to judge and to dismiss those are viewed as not living up to our expectations. We live in a “cancel” culture that dismisses anyone who criticises or even disagrees with us. This makes life feel very pressured for all of us. We feel the pressure of always being right and are stressed by the constant effort of avoiding anything that looks remotely like failure.

In today’s gospel Jesus takes the opposite approach. In telling the crowd the parable of the fig tree he reminds us that God is a God of second chances. When the vineyard owner sees his fig tree isn’t bearing fruit his inclination is to cut it down and use the space for something else. His gardener stays his had saying:

“Leave it one more year and give me time to dig round it and manure it: it may bear fruit next year; if not, then you can cut it down.”

The gardener recognises a potential in the fig tree that the master misses. He sees that with extra care, attention and nourishment the tree might flourish and bear fruit, however unlikely it seems.

When we feel like we’re failing or that our lives are not bearing fruit Jesus looks at us in the same way as the gardener looks at the fig tree. He sees beyond the disappointment and hopelessness. He offers us a second chance, knowing that with care, attention and nourishment we too can bear fruit, even if we can’t quite believe it ourselves.

Where is Christ offering you a second chance this Lent?

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Mercy

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The 18 word in my Lent Lexicon is:

MERCY.

It’s a word that’s full of hope and challenge. Its challenge is in it’s call to admit our faults & failing, to confess that we all need mercy in our lives. We both stand in need of God’s mercy and are called top be merciful towards others. To admit this is uncomfortable, especially in a world that seems to expect us to be effortlessly successful in every endeavour.

Another challenge of mercy is that it can only come as a gift, we can’t demand it, earn it or get it for ourselves. The most we can do is ask for it when we recognise our need strive to be open to receive it.

It’s not all challenge, mercy also offers us hope. In today’s first reading the prophet Micah writes:

“What god can compare with you: taking fault away, pardoning crime, not cherishing anger for ever but delighting in showing mercy?”

His words remind us, not only that God knows our faults and is willing to be merciful, but that the mercy is offered freely and generously with delight. The source of God’s mercy towards us is the love, the love that holds us in being. It’s the love that the gospel describes in the story of the prodigal son.

Knowing the son’s faults, and even that his predicament is of his own making, his father reaches out to draw him back into his love. However we disguise them God knows our faults, and knowing them delights in offering us mercy and welcoming us back into God’s loving embrace.

Where are you being offered God’s mercy this Lent?

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Listen with the ear of your heart.

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Today we’re celebrating the feast of the Passing of St Benedict, so for my Lent word I’ve gone back to the wisdom of his Rule. The 17 word in my Lent lexicon is:

LISTEN

Listen is the first word in the Rule of St Benedict. It takes me back to the basics of the Christian call. We’re getting close to the halfway mark in Lent. I always think of this as a bit of a “dead” time in Lent. The novelty of our Lent practices has worn off, and we’re still a long way from the impetus of Holy Week.

This means that it’s the time when it’s easiest to let our Lent practices slip. In such times I find it helpful to go back to the basics. St Benedict opens the Rule with these words:

“Listen carefully to the master’s instructions and attend to them with the ear of your heart.”

The call to listen is at the heart of the Rule and of the gospel. We can’t follow the call of the gospel unless we allow ourselves to hear it. For that to happen we need to create space. We live surrounded by 24 hour sound. This can be very distracting.

If we are to allow God the chance to speak to our hearts, we have to switch off some of the other sounds that surround us, even the good & helpful ones. We have to create a quiet space where we can hear the gentle, loving voice of God calling us to follow.

What is helping you to listen to God’s voice this Lent?

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Faithfulness and trust.

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The fifteenth word in my Lent lexicon is:

FAITHFULNESS.

It has particular resonance today as we celebrate the feast of St Joseph. It seems to perfectly sums up this man who is sometimes dismissed as a shadowy figure. In the gospel he appears as a background figure who supports Mary and the child Jesus bringing stability and respectability to an otherwise difficult situation.

Yet, so often the apparently background figure has a more important role than we realise at first glance. Joseph is man of faith, from a long line of people who waited through the centuries for God’s promise to be fulfilled, keeping hope alive even when facing disappointment.

When his life and expectations are completely turned upside down St Joseph finds the courage to draw on their faith. So that in the face of what must have seemed like a shattering blow he’s able to remain faithful and follow God’s call into the unknown as his ancestors did.

“When Joseph woke up he did what the angel of the Lord had told him to do.”

It can’t have been an easy choice, it will have required both humility and courage as well as faithfulness and trust. It’s impossible to think of this without reflecting on the seemingly insurmountable challenges our world faces today, both at home and abroad.

As we see lives disrupted and communities destroyed by war and uncertainty St Joseph becomes a valuable role model. He reminds us that however dark and uncertain our lives, we are called to remain faithful and willing to follow God into the unknown.

What helps you to be faithful to God’s call this Lent?

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Becoming servants

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The fourteenth word in my Lent lexicon is:

SERVANT.

In today’s gospel Jesus calls his disciples once again to a life of service. He warned them against the hypocrisy of thinking themselves above others and therefore expecting special treatment and concessions.

However uncomfortable the thought we have to admit that we all recognise the temptation in our lives. It’s the way of the world, especially maybe of our own time with it’s concern with appearance and influence.

Beguiling as that can be we are all too aware that it is not the way of the Kingdom that Jesus has come to establish. Instead he comes as a servant, showing us a new way of being, a way of service that asks us to put the needs of others before our own.

During his ministry Jesus gives us plenty examples of what it means to serve as he travels the country, healing, listening & calling people to follow him. Lent give his call to service a greater resonance as we follow him to Jerusalem and the service that won us new life.

In today’s gospel Jesus invites his disciples turn away from the ways of the world and follow his example. He tells them:

“The greatest among you must be your servant. Those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”

His words are also an invitation to us. He calls us to turn away from the ways of our times and to follow his example of service. He challenges us to avoid the false dazzle of the limelight and instead to look for ways we can serve others.

Where is Christ inviting you to find ways of serving others this Lent?

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Called to be compassionate.

The thirteenth word in my Lent lexicon is:

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COMPASSION.

We’re called to be compassionate as God our Father is compassionate. It’s always an important part of our call. In these challenging times when our structures seem so precarious it is even more essential to learn how to be compassionate.

There are so many ways we can misunderstand, misconstrue and judge others harshly that it can come to seem the norm. It can be difficult to take a stand against it, yet in today’s gospel Jesus makes it clear that being judgemental can never be the way of the gospel. His Kingdom is to be built on love and compassion:

“Jesus said to his disciples: ‘Be compassionate as your Father is compassionate. Do not judge, and you will not be judged yourselves; do not condemn, and you will not be condemned yourselves; grant pardon, and you will be pardoned.”

His words are a call to a new way of being. It’s a way that has the potential to change and renew our relationships and our communities. But it has to begin with an inner transformation. The call to be compassionate requires us to weed out the attitudes that would incline us to harsh judgements of others.

It calls us to put aside our hurt and our anger enough to give others the benefit of the doubt. It invites us to believe the best of others even if that’s not on display. It seems to me that the best way to move towards this is to acknowledge our own need for compassion. Once we admit to ourselves that we can cause hurt it becomes much easier to be compassionate when we see others do the same.

Where is Christ inviting you to learn to be compassionate this Lent?

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Challenged to love.

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The eleventh word in my Lent lexicon is

LOVE

At first glance it’s hard to see how this might be a challenging Lent word. Surely to love and be loved is good? It is, and yet, as I reflect more deeply I become aware of the challenges that love presents.

We are all too aware of how much we need love and how vulnerable that needy can leave us. We have experiences of receiving love that are life giving. We also have experiences of not receiving the love we needed and how damaging that can be for us.

Love requires us to put ourselves aside, to think first of what would be best for others. To do that with those most intimately connected to us is hard and challenging enough. Yet Jesus tells us that this not enough:

“Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you; in this way you will be children of your Father in heaven, for God causes his sun to rise on the bad as well as good, and the rain to fall on the honest and dishonest alike.”

This call to love goes beyond our limited human ways. It calls us to love as God loves. It can seem almost impossible. If we struggle to love those who love us how can we love those who would harm or hurt us?

It’s a hard call especially when hate and mistrust seem to be gaining the upper hand in our communities and societies. In such times this call is even more important. Jesus calls us to risk an openness and vulnerability that goes beyond our limited human understanding of what love is.

Where are you being called to love your enemy this Lent?

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Be reconciled

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The tenth word in my Lent lexicon is:

RECONCILIATION.

The call to reconciliation is essential. We can’t go through life without causing each other distress and pain. That means we have to find ways of forgiving one another, of becoming reconciled and rebuilding damaged relationships. This is true on every level of human life from personal relationships to international relations.

Reconciliation is not easy. When we have been hurt or wronged it’s really hard to see beyond that to be able to forgive and to rebuild damaged relationships. The temptation is to stay with our hurt and our pain rather than taking the risk of moving beyond it into a situation where we have to be open, trusting and vulnerable.

In today’s gospel Jesus makes it clear that, however hard it might be, the call to reconciliation is not an optional extra, it’s central to the call of the gospel and to building the kingdom. He says to his followers:

“If you are bringing your offering to the altar and there remember that someone has something against you, leave your offering there before the altar, go and be reconciled with them first, and then come back and present your offering.”

He makes it clear that, however hard it might be we need to find ways of being reconciled with one another if we are to live well and flourish. This echoes our own experience; we know how destructive an unforgiving attitude can be both to relationships and to our inner life.

Reconciliation requires that we move beyond our own perspectives, allowing that there might be a bigger picture than we can see. It calls us to allow that someone else’s perspective might be as valid as our own. It asks asks to admit that being right might not be the most important thing.

Where is Christ calling you to seek reconciliation this Lent?

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Courage to ask

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The ninth word in my Lent lexicon is:

ASK.

For such a small word it carries a huge weight. We live in a society that values independence. We are expected to succeed and that often translates into being able to meet all our own needs, physical, emotional & spiritual. Even as we know that can’t be true or even possible the expectation shapes us. We carry the weight of it with us every day. The result can be that asking at all can feel like a failure.

Today’s readings offer us a different reality. In the first reading Queen Esther, faced with a difficult and challenging situation finds the courage ask God for what she needs to be able to save her people.

In the gospel Jesus puts it very simply and directly:

“‘Ask, and it will be given to you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you. For the one who asks always receives; the one who searches always finds; those who knock will always have the door opened to them.”

He doesn’t expect us to meet all our needs by ourselves, he knows we’re not made to do that. Instead he encourages us to ask for what we need. His words offer us hope. In our culture, with it’s high value on independence, they are also a challenge.

He promises us that if we risk vulnerability in admitting our need we will be met with a loving and compassionate response. Lent is an invitation to trust that promise and to find the courage and humility to ask for what we need.

What do you need to ask God for this Lent?